November 2000 I met a boy. Cute laugh.
Piercing green eyes. Just so handsome. He made me laugh. He made me
feel special. He made me hope. And he loved Jesus. Four months after
meeting and already falling for him, he dropped a bomb. He had
forgotten to mention that days before we met, he made a vow to the
Lord that he would not date anyone for a year. Having just gotten out
of a long and "unhealthy" relationship, (because this is what wives say about all prior relationships) he was encouraged by a mentor
to get His relationship with the Lord right, and take a year to do
that. And he was just telling me now, four months into this
friendship. So in March the countdown began- to November. I remember
flipping through my CD collection (so archaic) when I found the
soundtrack to a movie called Sweet November. On that CD was this
song by Enya, and I thought of it today.
"Only Time"
Who can say where the road goes
Where the day flows, only time
And who can say if your love grows
As your heart chose, only time
Where the day flows, only time
And who can say if your love grows
As your heart chose, only time
It was so true.
God knew, but only time would tell. It was the perfect song. I
couldn't believe it. On a Sweet November CD of all things!
Only time would tell. Well, long story short, and 5 kids later,
November is still a very sweet month to me. If I close my eyes, I
can still remember the day he told me it was me that he wanted. I can
remember the feeling in my heart as I held his hand for the first
time. I can remember so many sweet moments- moments that I dreamed
of, all coming true.
But when I open my
eyes, there is a full trash can, a crashing computer, an unfinished
bathroom, and a toilet roll hung the wrong way. Their are obstacles,
difficulties and failures. My heart forgets that I am living a
dream. My heart forgets how I begged God for this man. We are
imperfect people needing grace. Over and over again. Seventy times
seven times.
I know I am not
alone because I have heard your stories, the amazing God stories that
need to be written down and published. My mother who saw a spray
painted letter from God on the subway wall “Choose Bill.” My
friend that pointed to a football players face on an FSU flyer and
told her mom she was going to marry him and years later did just
that. These beautiful stories that make the creations of Nicholas
Sparks look woefully small, can so easily be forgotten amidst the
monotony and difficulties of everyday life. And discontentment grows.
The eye never has enough. The ear can
never hear enough. There is nothing new under the sun.
No matter how many dreams God fulfills,
we always want more.
It is so popular to “vent” to let
out your frustrations. But maybe instead of a venting partner you
need a gratefulness partner. Never are we told to confess other
peoples sins, only our own. Of course we need to share each others
burdens, but when the majority of our conversation is a burden, we
have a problem.
Be grateful. You cannot be grateful
and discontent at the same time. You have to choose.
And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.
Do you want peace? Be thankful. Do you
want to be thankful? Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly,
teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms
and hymns and spiritual songs! And whatever you do- do everything in
the name of the Lord Jesus!! AMEN!!
November is a month that we all focus
on gratitude. I pray that you would do more than make a list, but
that you would close your eyes and remember. Remember the prayer that
you prayed ,remember the dream in your heart that the Lord fulfilled and walk
in gratitude. Remember the love that you felt and don't let the enemy
steal that from you. Remember the person you dreamed of and how
they are standing in your kitchen, perfectly imperfect. And be
grateful. Remember the child you prayed for, acting like a sinful
human, and be grateful. Remember the
job you fought for and be grateful. Remember the parents that raised you, the
siblings that played with you, the friends that loved you, and when
they inevitably do something to annoy you, be grateful. In everything, give thanks!
* Title credits go to the one and only Jewel Keefe
* Title credits go to the one and only Jewel Keefe
Again - You brought tears to my eyes! :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Mom! I am so grateful to you for raising my man! xoxo
DeleteSo true! I love this reminder. And for the record.... the toilet paper roll is not hanging the wrong way. How do I know? Because I just had this conversation with my husband. :D
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