Thanks to the date on my last blog I
have realized that I missed a lot of days. Here's why. (That "Here's why" was for
Pastor Bob, who clearly reads my blog, as evidenced by his sermons
that “coincidentally” say the same thing (totally kidding (how
many embedded parentheses can I have? (ok last one ))))
Well, the biggest reason for the gap is that school
is back in session, and my focusing ability is totally depleted
during the day, by the five cutest students in the world, leaving
my nights (when I usually type out my devo blog) completely devoid of the ability to form a coherent
sentence. But another reason, would be that I seem to have had a
case of the Januaries. I know I am not alone, because I have
confessed this “Blah” feeling to some of my closest friends, only
to hear many of them echo my sentiments. Oppressed seems like a
strong word, but yet it is the right word. This past week I felt
somewhat better, despite circumstances around me getting worse.
However, in the middle of it, if you have ever been there, and are in
charge of or responsible for anyone else, it's easy to feel
unqualified, defeated, thinking “How do I take care of my children,
or students, or coworkers, or fill in the blank....when I don't even
feel like taking care of myself?"
So I decided today that I wasn't going
to let another day go by without digging into the word. And while the
kids were playing on the play set at the park, I pulled out my phone
and started reading. (that's right lady judging me at the park for
being on my phone....I was reading the BIBLE!) ;) So I began reading and
read this:
David
therefore departed from there and escaped to the cave of Adullam. So
when his brothers and all his father’s house heard it, they
went down there to him. 2 And everyone who was in
distress, everyone who was in debt, and everyone who was
discontented gathered to him. So he became captain over them. And
there were about four hundred men with him.
David was running for his life, trying
to cling to a promise that was given to him, betrayed by his master,
separated from his best friend, and crying out to God regularly for
protection. Yet in this broken state, they came to him, those that
were discontented, and in debt, and distressed. And he became captain
over them. How? How did he do it? He was anointed to do it. He was
chosen to do it. He was empowered to do it. He was surrendered to
God's will. And he chose to do it.
I could relate. There are those days, too many lately, where I felt like I was struggling to take care of myself properly, yet here they came, the distressed, the indebted, and the discontent, needing me to be their captain. So I pray that as we stand before the
Lord, possibly feeling like we have nothing left to give, that we
would realize we never had anything to give in the first place. That
is through Him and Him alone that we do anything good. So by the power of His Holy
Spirit, there is nothing we cannot do.
5 Now
the prophet Gad said to David, “Do not stay in the stronghold;
depart, and go to the land of Judah.” So David departed and went
into the forest of Hereth.
Regardless of how little David was in
control, he was still in control of whether or not he chose to
obey. And here he does. He receives council from one of the prophets
and acts on it.
The end of the chapter gruesomely recounts the
consequences of David's lies to the priest. Saul hears from a man
that was there and witnessed the priest aiding a deceitful and desperate David. He reports to
Saul all that happened and many are killed because of it.
The last chapter we saw how our victories in Christ empower us for even bigger victories in the future. However this chapter reminds us that our disobedience also has far reaching consequences into the future. Our society tries to deny this reality. We as Christians also can pretend this is not true. Sometimes we think that we can pray away the disastrous results to our bad choices and sins. We are forgiven. That is for sure. But our decisions have consequences. I pray that our eyes would be opened to those sinful decisions we are making....pride, covetousness, blasphemy, lust.....those commandments being broken, and that we would take them seriously, knowing also that we serve a just and loving God, who longs to be gracious to us. Isaiah 30:18 Therefore the LORD longs to be gracious to you, And therefore He waits on high to have compassion on you. For the LORD is a God of justice; How blessed are all those who long for Him.
I'll say it again - "I don't know how you do it, Lauren!". Thank you for your time, your talent, your wisdom and your love for your husband and children. You are such a blessing to us all!!! Great word! Love you!!
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing, Lauren. It's uplifting, yet saddening, to know that I'm not the only one who is oppressed by the Januaries"
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